This morning I ran a 4k race called the “Kiss Me I’m Irish Run”. I got up at 6am and went down to Westgate. It was a little chilly out so I put a big baggy shirt on underneath my race shirt. It made me look huge and disheveled. I ran a big part of the race but my goal was to run the whole thing and of course I couldn’t. I’m still working on my running. My legs get so tired. I can do about ten minutes at a time now. I have run 20 minutes once, but I haven’t been able to repeat that yet. Still working on it. It’s my dream and athlete goal to be a real runner. I want to run a 5k without stopping. Gotta keep pushing on. Keep working on it everyday.
I have had a craving for a Reuben ever since I saw the Arby’s tv commercial. My boyfriend said the Arby’s reuben taste like crap so I went on a search today for a good one.
In the process of doing that, I massively overate today and I’m trying to re-frame it into the positive context of a refeed
I’ve been eating pretty much the same thing, day in and day out for about 6 weeks
oatmeal, egg whites, chicken, salmon, tilapia, green beans, potatoes, broccoli
Keeping my calories at around 1200 and definitely less on some days
even on days when I ate somethig different, I was still restrained and tried to keep my calories for the day low.
I never felt satiated. I always felt hungry.
Today I just decided that I needed a break so I went to two different deli’s and had a Reuben at each, the most fattening sandwhich you can order. I also had a lemon bar, because lemon bar flavored gum just isn’t the same.
My calories for the day was somewhere between 2500 – 3000
I felt satiated and full and I don’t want to feel negative about it. I feel a sense of panic trying to creep in about how much weight I am inevitably going to gain because of my eating choices today
But I know I won’t gain like TEN pounds or anything, nothing that can’t be reversed, so I want to just feel happy in this moment. Happy and grateful that I have a full belly. I want to appreciate it today.