I’m a semi-single, Domestic goddess and part time model on a journey to get to a smaller size and healthier weight if possible.
I haven’t always been obese, but in the past 10 years I put on about 130 lbs. due to depression. In the picture to the left I’m about 300 lbs.
I’ve tried the lemonade cleanse, Atkins, South Beach Diet, working out to workout tapes. I’ve tried all kinds of things to lose weight but I never kept with it for life because I would feel deprived and unhappy. Every diet I’ve ever gone on has made me gain weight.
I’ve always been interested in Exercise and Wellness. I earned a Bachelors degree from Arizona State University in Spa Management and Wellness Foundations in 2011. Originally I wanted my degree to be in Exercise and Wellness but I let a counselor talk me into that program which is now extinct. 😦 I still had to take about 10 exercise and wellness classes though to get that degree however.
After graduation, when I went to look for jobs at spas and fitness centers I felt very self conscious because of my obesity. I’m interested in working in the fitness industry because it’s something I’ve always been passionate about.
I wish I could say it’s all for health, but some of it is. My knees and back hurt and walking up stairs make me winded. I live on the 2nd floor so I walk steps several times a day.
I realized that there is some dissonance between what I look like and what my career goals are. So I’ve decided to take the time to align my body with my career goals.
I’ve been following Bodybuilding since the 1990’s. My favorites were Lenda Murray, Sharon Bruneau, and Amy Fadhli. I’ve always been a fan and enthusiast of fitness competitors. I’ve had subscriptions to muscle and fitness magazines for years. I dreamt about being a FIGURE competitor for years but I never really tried to go for it. I now realize that those competitors are not the epitome of health either whether they are starving, depriving themselves or taking drugs and I don’t want to do that. So I have to adjust what an ideal figure is to me.
So now this is my journey to happiness and healthiness and accepting and loving myself for being myself.