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7 whole days

Several things occurred in my life the past 7 days. I don’t want to go into detail on here because this blog is primarily about weight loss and being healthy. Overall I consider it to be a more positive blog.

I will say that I’m in the process of seeking medical treatment. I was in the hospital this week and that was making the situation worse, so I am going to seek other treatment.

In the hospital they weighed me and I was at 286 pounds. So I lost 7 pounds since I last posted my weight at 293 lbs back on January 7, 2018. It’s been a month and I didn’t TRY to lose that weight. Life stressors cut my appetite. However the hospital food was very fattening and I may have gained all that back.

I don’t know if I will still have a job after this.

If everything turns out ok, I have decided to start some form of exercise for mental health purposes. Previously I exercised for weight loss.

People say exercise helps your mind and I was never open to that because that wasn’t my experience. Maybe it will be different this time.

Gotta try everything.



This past week

Ate better, only went over on my calories 1 day

Last week was hard, I talked to a bankruptcy attorney because I may have to file bankruptcy to resolve some financial issues, not even all of them

if it will help, that’s fine

I was physically ill this weekend, I slept a lot, didn’t eat much

Now I showered, washed my sheets, feel so much better.

Blog Update

My sweets addiction is out of control. I don’t know if my period is due and that’s why or what. I wish I could afford that medication I was on previously that helped with my sugar cravings but my health insurance won’t pay for ANYTHING until the $6,000 deductible is paid.

I’m reading my old posts and I don’t see that I’ve updated several things.

  1. I purchased a car so I have transportation to work. I wanted to pay $2000 cash cause that’s what I had saved, but was unable to find anything decent (something that wouldn’t breakdown and leave me stranded or fall apart in 6 months). So I purchased a good used Honda Accord from my mom’s mechanic. It was $5000. I paid the $2000 which I had saved and a family member loaned me another $1000. The guy I purchased from is allowing me to make monthly payments, interest free, to pay off the remaining $2000. That’s the reason I can’t start saving for weight loss surgery right away.
  2. I pay $140 a month for health insurance thru my employer. They don’t cover anything till the $6,000 deductible is paid, so I am thinking of canceling it and using that monthly money to pay a psychiatrist/therapist/Rx’s out of pocket.
  3. I weaned myself off all my medication because I couldn’t afford it and it was preventing me from being able to work cause of sleep issues. I need different bipolar med which requires a dr. RX but can’t afford to see a Dr.
  4. I drastically cut my food/grocery/eating out budget so I can pay off some bills so I can save for weight loss surgery.
  5. I post what I eat in a day thru MyFitnessPal by logging my calories. Not sure if you are able to see that if you add me as a friend on there.
  6. I drink a lot of water at work, but at home I drink calorie free iced tea and 15 calorie lemonade.
  7. I haven’t been to therapy since I started working last July. It conflicted with my work schedule. Last week I called to set up therapy again. Need to conquer my dysfuntional eating habits, which may be a psychological issue.
  8. I haven’t had coca cola , cereal or a donut in months. I do eat other junk though.
  9. At some point I thought it would only take a year to save the money for WLS. That was wishful thinking.
  10. Obviously I never moved to Indonesia. It was not practical and there were legal residency issues.
  11. Looking at past posts it looks like I only eat poorly. That is not the case. Some days I eat healthy, some days I don’t go over my daily calorie goals. I just tend to post when I eat poorly and don’t usually post when I am eating healthily. I have been unable to stick to a regular healthy eating plan even with cheat days. If I had no problems with willpower, consistency and diet compliance, I wouldn’t be obese.
  12. I moved in with my mom to improve my life and it is better overall. I am working on all my goals. There have been some setbacks, but I am moving forward.

Getting Money for Gastric Bypass

As I’ve done in the past I am trying several methods to get gastric bypass surgery. I was quoted a price of $6500 to get it from Dr Joya in Mexico.

Dr. Joya Reviews

If you’ve been following my journey, you know that insurance denied me and my most recent weight loss surgeon said I do not qualify anyway as I don’t have any obesity related medical conditions. He required several tests to be done which I blogged about on this website. Now I owe him money and didn’t get the surgery.

I am unable to qualify for any official loans or financing.

My only option now to get the surgery is to self pay.

In the past I lived hand to mouth, not enough income to save at all, some times not enough money to live. I was never able to get the money to self pay.

A relative offered to loan me $3500, so now I just need to get the other half plus hotel/plane fees.


Snack Tip

I gave up vending machine candy/cookies/chips for my New Years resolution goals. I use to buy that stuff EVERY day from the vending machine at work. Instead I purchased from the grocery store , bulk boxes of 100 calorie packs of various cookies. Somehow it’s been working so far and I’m not overeating them. I’m surprised.

Cancelled Nutrisytem

OK I cancelled Nutrisystem for financial reasons today. I had ordered it mainly for convenience, but I added it up and I can save about $100 a month if I purchase similar items from the grocery store instead.

So I was paying about $330 a month for 88 food items (4 meals a day, which includes Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, Snack, for 22 days), . That’s about $3.75 per food item. I went to the grocery store yesterday and I discovered that I can purchase some of those same items or very similar items in bulk for less.

For example; Nutri-system would send me these Turkey Sausage & Egg Muffin for breakfast. Well Jimmy Dean sells a box of 4 of those for $5. I can save $10 by buying that instead. So many items are similar like the banana nut muffins they sent, I can buy a package of 4 of those at the grocery store for $6 and save $18.

It would be different if Nutri-Sytem was sending;

  1. very high quality items with loads of fruit and veggies
  2. multiple items I couldn’t buy similar of at the grocery store

The one good thing about the Nutri-Sytem items is that they are a little lower in calories than the grocery store version. But I didn’t order it for the less calories, I ordered it for the convenience.  Also I was eating a bunch of candy/pie/cake/cookies along with Nutri-System, so there was no point as far as losing weight. Plus I was still going to the grocery store once a week to get my ’15 calorie’ fruit juice and zero-calorie ice tea and while there picking up praline peach cobbler and italian creme cake. If I’m going to go to the grocery store anyway, how is this convenient?

In total I was spending about $450 a month on food. I need to get that down to $350.

I do plan to eat a little better this year and try to lose 50 pounds. That’s my goal for the year. Lose 4 pounds a month this year. 1 pound per week. Eat less Kit Kats, Snickers and Reece’s cups from the vending machine. Try to binge less on cakes and pies. Nothing drastic, just a little better.

We know I can’t maintain drastic changes, so not going to even try anymore without drastic intervention such as weight loss surgery.



Trying something

I signed up for NutriSystem. Originally I joined because I was having a hard time getting meals all the time, always trying to figure out what to eat. it was stressful and I was spending ALOT of money eating out cause I could never figure out what to eat. I wish I had a chef to cook for me 3 times a day but since I can’t afford that I just need to have food always readily available for each of my meals. I was tired of eating oatmeal every day for breakfast and then every day trying to figure out what to eat for lunch and dinner. I had resorted to going to the employee restaurant at my job everyday which has HORRIBLE food. awful food. Then for dinner I was either eating out every day or getting these ready-made dinners from H.E.B. that cost $7 – $10 per dinner which was getting expensive. I don’t cook, I only warm up food and use microwaves. So I just was running out of options.

So I looked into Jenny Craig and NutriSystem to have meals delivered. Jenny Craig was almost twice the price of NutriSystem and NutriSystem actually fell into my $400 monthly food budget so I ordered.

My first month of meals cost $316.98. That’s because I had a $20 off coupon. Also free shipping! I chose a plan where I could pick all my food since I am picky with what I will eat. I was disappointed that I signed up for a month of food but they only gave me enough food for 17 days. I contacted customer service about that and they said this is normal and that on the second month I’ll get enough food for 24 days. That’ll still have me without food for 4-6 days a month but it’s better. My food arrived within a week of ordering. It came in two separate shipments, one for frozen food and one for non-frozen. I received Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner and Snacks. All the food is labeled for the type of meal it is so no confusion when to eat what.

I finished my first week of food. Theres been some hits and misses as far as taste goes. I’ve loved ALL the frozen food I’ve ordered but some of the non-frozen food is not too great. For example; I ordered cheese puffs for a snack, they were awful however the next day for a snack I tried the smoky BBQ chip snack rounds and those were delicious. Same as the dry food lunches. They come in little paper cartons and barely seem like enough food. Anyway I warmed up the three cheese and chicken pasta and it was awful, not even edible, I threw it away. I ended up eating a SNICKERS that day for lunch cause I had no options except the vending machine. But today for lunch in the lil paper carton I had black beans and rice and it was good. Today my dinner was chicken and bbq beans. It was not great. The curious thing about that dinner is that it was a non-frozen food. I’m scared to find out how there can be a half chicken breast in a package that doesn’t need to be refrigerated or frozen. the breakfast Turkey and Egg English Muffin is good but the muffins are just ok. You can customize your food plan for the next month so that you do not re-order food you don’t like.

So since I ordered this meal plan just to have food readily available to me when I needed and to save money, it was a bonus to realize it’s mostly low-calorie and high protein. I’ve tracked my calories this week and I’ve definitely lowered my calories. I’m hoping to keep my calories between 1200 – 1700 a day. If I do that I will actually lose a little weight. Yesterday I only ate 1200 calories even though I had 3 nutrisystem snacks including the yummiest ice-cream sandwich. the day before that I ate 1,780 calories but that’s because i stopped at starbucks and ate junk because my sister forced me to go to Target before I could get home for dinner and I was starving.

Speaking of starving, I am a little hungry on this meal system, particularly at night after dinner. I’ve been eating these Nutrisystem – Crush Bar-peanut Butter Chocolate, but I ate my last one today. They sent me this extra box of that and some protein shakes. Also I’m going to run out of snacks cause I eat at least 2 of them per day. The snacks are generally REALLY good. I take one to work and I eat one after dinner.

I’m not following the Nutri Sytem weight loss plan, that involves adding at least four servings of non-starchy veggies to your meals but I don’t feel like preparing and cooking vegetables or paying more money for salads and all that. Also they recommend you supplement your foods with PowerFuels (like nuts and nut butters, lean meats and dairy), SmartCarbs (like fruits, whole grains and bread) and Extras (like salad dressings or coffee creamer) . Right now it’s just really easy to plop a meal into the microwave and eat that. If I have to prepare vegetables or buy additional food that takes away the whole point of me buying this in the first place which was to make my life easier and save money. The only thing I buy now is 15 calorie juice and zero calorie diet tea. I drink water at work. I stopped buying the junk food from the vending machine and don’t drink the soda as much. I only drank one can of soda all this week.

Overall this is so much better than what I was doing before because now I know I have food to eat and I don’t need to eat out so much.





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