My first appointment with the binge eating therapist is this wednesday
The past 3 days I have eaten perfectly on plan
I just keep telling myself two things:
- My mental health is better when I am not eating sugar everyday and when I have perfect diet days. I feel more in control of my life and I want to feel good about myself instead of feeling guilty all the time.
- I can eat whatever I want on Saturday. I keep writing down all the stuff I want to eat on Saturday. I have a long list. I’m sure I won’t be eating it all tomorrow. I will eat some next saturday too. I’m so happy I have a cheat day now.
Today I weigh 190 pounds. That is 26 pounds more than my lowest weight this year.
One of the things that was causing me so much anxiety has been removed from my life. That was my new roommate, he was so clingy, annoying, irritating and I was always in a bad mood because of him. I didn’t even realize how much anxiety he was causing me until he left. I literally said “thank God” when I saw his note that he was going back home. It was such a relief. I’m going to keep my distance from roommates in the future. I learned my lesson.