My period

For some odd reason my period came 5 days early. Mostly just spotting but it’s anoying. The thing is I didn’t lose weight this week but yesterday I was a pound less. So I’m wondering if I gained weight cause of my period. Hopefully that is the reason.

I have been adding more calories this week. Just a few so I can take my protein water. I cut my protein water last week so I could lose more weight. But this week I added it back.

Anyway I’ll find out next Sunday if I gained weight because of my period or not.

July Spending

Sorry Y’all I had to Update this again cause I added quite a few things since I first posted. Next month I will wait till the last day of the month to post this.

I was supposed to shop less this month

I still spent $660 that wasn’t planned for and wasn’t in my budget

That came from my Emergency Fund. So yea my Emergency fund is looking real weak right now.

Hopefully the government gives us a stimulus check in August so I can replace that money

What I bought:

Pat McGrath lip balms ($14), I’ve received these and they are absolutely worth it. Beautiful moisturizing balms with a actual color to them that shows up.

SheaMakery candles and body butter. This still hasn’t even shipped to me yet. ($43.95)

Ofra x Jen Luvs Reviews Lipstick collaboration. It comes with 3 lipsticks designed to transform any other lipstick you own. I’m glad I ordered this the day it came out, because it is sold out now. I received these and they are nice. ($40)

Zents perfume samples. I hav been a fan of the scent “Sun” by Zents for 10 years. I have a perfume from them that I got in 2011 and it still smells great and lasts long on my skin. a couple months ago I bought a body wash and lotion in that same scent. I wanted to see what their other scents smelled like so I ordered these 10 samples. I don’t like most of the smells in the samples. ($15)

Face Masks – I ordered in total 12 new face masks. Most I ordered from eshakti. I got my glitter ones from amazon though. ($83)

ELF Cosmetics – they came out with a new lip balm and a Lip Lacquer I wanted to try and I also have been wanting their blush cheek palette cause I need something small enough to travel with. I plan to go to Arizona in December for New Years Eve if things have gotten better. I received these and I love everything I got from ELF. ($17.32)

Grapeseed oil. I am currently dealing with a issue with my face. My eyes are severely dehydrated and Thursday evening I put aquaphor on my undereye and my lip. I woke up to my whole face swollen and red and puffy and black and blue. It looked like I had been beaten up. It wasn’t anything I ate. It had to be the aquaphor. It’s slowly going down but my friend recommended I use grapeseed oil on my skin so I decided to buy some off Amazon. ($12.94)

Soylent Cafe – For some stupid reason, and I do mean stupid, I ordered this 12 pack of Soylent Cafe variety pack. I think I wanted it cause it says it has 20 grams of protein per bottle. Unfortunately I didn’t read the other stats and missed the fact that it has 400 calories per bottle. So now I gotta have that for breakfast instead of having my Soylent Stacked with a pack of oatmeal. I am so annoyed. ($38.80)

Today I went to Target, which is where I buy most of my meals. I went down the soap aisle because I had heard about this new product from Olay on Youtube. Specifically it’s the BODY WASH VITAMIN B3 AND HYALURONIC ACID and the matching Rinse off Body Conditioner with shea butter. So I bought that and some feminine wash. I never tried the feminine wash that is specifically for Active people so I wanted to try that for days I go on my walks. People say you shouldn’t use feminine wash but I’ve been using it since I was a teenager and I have never had vagina issues. ($23)

Ok I just watched 2 black Youtubers (kinky sweat & Vikeejeah) who both influenced me to try this luxury brand called Chantecaille. I aint got luxury dollars, but they were offering 30% off anything on the site and I am a collector of lip balms so I just went ahead and picked up this Lip Tint Hydrating Balm just now. Normally it cost $34 but with the discount + tax it came to ($26). That is not too far off what I paid for my Laneige lip sleeping mask and my Bite Beauty Agave lip mask and my Sara Happ lip slip and my Kylie Skin lip mask.

Subscription to this black owned beauty box made for women of color CoCotique ($20)

I had to get this Naturium Vitamin C Super Serum Plus as soon as it restocked. it gets sold out super fast and I’ve wanted it for 2 months. ($30.95)

My shoes from Susiecloths finally arrived after 3 months, I told myself if they arrived I would order some more shoes I wanted. So I ordered 4 more pair. They will probably come in October or November which is why I ordered them now, since it takes so long for them to ship to me. ($101)

Y’all know I’m a collector of lip balms, well I was watching this YouTuber nisipisa and she mentioned that Milani came out with a line of lip balms called Fruit Fetish. OMG, they sound so good and she said they smell AND taste good. I went a little crazy and I bought the whole collection of them except 2. I also added the Oil Infused Lip Treatment to my cart. ($41.02)

4 bottles of Goli apple cider vinegar gummies. These actually suppress my appetite. I actually need to stop taking two at a time cause it comes with 60 per bottle and I’ve been taking 4 per day. So they only lasted 2 weeks. If I take 2 per day, it will last a month. I just don’t know if I will get as much suppression from 2. I order them in batches of 4 bottles cause I always get an amazing discount when I do that. When I am checking out and ordering 1 bottle it pops up on screen they will give me 1 more bottle for free if I add 2 more bottles to my cart. So I end up getting 4 bottles for : ($56)

3 Sleep caps – ($12.79)

Dish set cause my roommates moved out and took all the plates. I found this all white 12 pc. dish set from Walmart on sale for : ($10)

When I lived in Boston my roommate gave me a Nag Champa lotion and I was obsessed with it. I have been searching ever since for a similar lotion and I found one that has a body wash in the set. ($11.90)

I stopped at the mall today to stock up on Wallflowers from Bath N Bodyworks. I use these to keep my room smelling fresh and fragrant. I bought 10 today plus a new component for the wallflowers. ($55.59)

I stopped at CVS today to get some toiletries and I ended up buying one of those Milani Fruit Fetish lip balms in the flavor/scent that I hadn’t already purchased. I got the Dragonfruit/Peach flavor. OMG y’all this smells incredible, I recommend them, They are only : ($7.99)

Most of my spending happened towards the end of the month when I was losing my resolve for saving. So yes all this stuff came to $660 which is so much better than what I’ve done the past 3 months. So there has been progress. I need to work on this a little harder though and stop being influenced so easily.

I spent $1800 last month (June) on clothes/shoes/beauty/perfume. So I did improve this month, but I desperately need to get that number much lower.

I also went over budget on my groceries this month.

What I ate today

Breakfast: Maple and Brown Sugar Protein oatmeal (220 cal), Soylent Stacked (180 cal)

Lunch: Curried lentils with rice (510 cal), sparkling water (10 cal)

Dinner: Goli (30 cal), sparkling water (10 cal), Amy’s Light & Lean Spaghetti Italiano (240 cal), protein water (70 cal)

Snack: Goli (30 cal), greek salad (180 cal), vinaigrette (60 cal), sparkling water (10 cal)

Total calories: 1,550

Protein: 74 grams Fat: 43 grams Carbohydrate: 226 grams Sugar: 45 grams Fiber: 26 grams

About Bloating

I like watching this channel, really helpful nutritional tips throughout the channel. Because of her I just ordered a vegan Omega supplement that has DHA. Yesterday I ordered fiber gummies and a liquid fiber supplement. MyFitnessPal tracking shows that I don’t eat enough fiber on a regular basis. Which could be the cause of my constipation and painful bloating.

How to Lose Weight without Surgery

My new Goal

So I lowered my weight loss goal.

Now I want to get to 145 pounds instead of 150 pounds. I want to be a size 6-8.

Hopefully I will reach my goal by December 2021.

So hopefully I will lose 25 more pounds this year by December.

Then next year, 2021, I will hopefully lose 53 pounds.

I think once I get below 200 pounds it might get harder for me to lose weight. So right now I am averaging a 6 pound loss per month. Next year it might be closer to 4 pounds per month or 1 pound per week.

I adjusted my setting on MyFitnessPal to the goal of losing 1.5 pounds per week. MyFitnessPal adjusted my daily caloric goal to 1,580. That’s about what I eat normally or maybe a little less.

Masks

It’s looking like we are going to be wearing masks for another year

so I decided to stock up on some that matches my wardrobe.

So i got red, blue, green, olive green, blue jean color, yellow, hot pink, pink and white polka dot, camouflage, 3 rhinestone sparkly ones

The total cost was: $82

Taken out of my Emergency Fund

This is where I got most of them: https://www.eshakti.com/Shop/Masks

Measurements for July

How to Take Body Measurements 

• Bust: Measure around the chest right at the nipple line, but don’t pull the tape too tight.
• Chest: Measure just under your bust.
• Waist: Measure a half-inch above your belly button or at the smallest part of your waist.
• Hips: Place the tape measure around the biggest part of your hips.
• Thighs: Measure around the biggest part of each thigh.
• Calves: Measure around the largest part of each calf.
• Upper arm: Measure around the largest part of each arm above the elbow.
• Forearm: Measure around the largest part of the arm below the elbow.

Let’s compare my measurements from last 2 months.

• Bust: 45 inches (May) ; 46 inches (June); 44.5 inches (July)
• Chest: 38 inches (May) ; 39 inches (June); 38 inches (July)
• Waist: 42 inches (May) ; 39 inches (June); 38 inches (July)
• Hips: 46 inches (May) ; 45 inches (June); 45 inches (July)
• Thighs: 27 inches (May) ; 24 inches (June); 26 inches (July)
• Calves: 16 inches (May) ; 14 inches (June); 15 inches (July)
• Upper arm: 13 inches (May) ; 13 inches (June); 12 inches (July)
• Forearm: 9 inches (May) ; 9 inches (June); 9 inches (July)

Losing It All

My weight has gone down to 223 pounds!

I’m excited about that.

I did focus pretty hard on lowering my calories this week to make this happen.

I don’t plan to keep my calories this low for long, I just was unhappy that I didn’t lose any weight last week.

I kept my calories below 1500 for all of this week except for yesterday.

Yesterday I ate:

Breakfast: Soylent Stacked (180 cal), protein banana nut oatmeal (240 cal)

Lunch: Smoked Gouda Mac n Cheese (410 cal), sparkling water (10 cal), Protein infused water+energy (70 cal)

Dinner: Gardein Sausage Benny Breakfast Bowl (250 cal), Goli (30 cal), sparkling water (10 cal)

Snack: Goli (30 cal), greek salad (180 cal), Vinaigrette (60 cal), sparkling water (10 cal)

Total calories: 1510

Transgender

I watched a lot of videos about transgender people last night

I want to be more accepting and understanding and not be harmful

and I want to get rid of any transphobia I have, known or unknown

I just want to be a better person

so yea I watched alot of videos from this trans woman named Kat Blaque

I actually asked her a question and she responded to me right away

so that was nice

I watched this video by this woman that was very transphobic and it made me uncomfortable

This video is pretty good though