I have therapy twice a week, with two different therapist
one on wednesdays with a white female student and one on thursdays with a black man
On wednesday I was telling my therapist that I am feeling a little disgusted by the collection of “stuff” I have accumulated in my room
I live in kinda a boarding house situation. It’s 4 bedrooms with private bathrooms and we share the kitchen and living room. We never go in the living room though, but I do film my YouTube videos from there.
Anyway so all of my stuff is in my bedroom and it’s overwhelming how much ‘stuff’ I have.
I almost feel like a hoarder, except all my “stuff” is new and organized
I am surrounded by shoes and lip balm
My mom ordered some Billy book shelves from IKEA for me to put all this stuff on and I think I will feel better when its all just on one side of the room in a book shelf
But for now it’s just too much
Today I sold 9 pair of shoes to the resale shops, just to get rid of some of this “stuff”
All the rest of the stuffI need to use to get rid of it
so I am taking more showers and making sure to do my skin care twice a day so I can get rid of some of the body care items I have
But I have over 50 lip balms in my lip balm collection and I figure it will take me 150 months, or 10 years to even get thru all that lip balm.
I told my therapist that now that I feel like I am done with shopping and I feel more in control of my life and my emotions all this “stuff” reminds me of my mental illness
Like it’s a symptom of being mentally unwell and I dont like seeing all this stuff all the time anymore