I consider myself to be a body positive person. Some in the Body Positive movement would say I am not because I want to change my body, specifically I want my body to be smaller and I would love to be able to run without hurting my joints and knees. I want to be able to run cause my lungs will get stronger and my heart will work more efficiently.
I watched this video today titled: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIvKpoPxMv8
The “Body Positivity” Movement Was Hijacked to Celebrate Obesity.
I posted the following comment under it:
“I’m in my late 40’s and morbidly obese. I’ve been obese about 17 years. 2 years ago, when I was 310 pounds I started seeing Dr. Nowzaradan, the bariatric surgeon from the ‘600 pound life’ tv show in Houston. After doing a bunch of tests including sleep apnea test and putting me to sleep to stick a scope down my throat to my stomach, he did so much different testing on me searching for a problem. I even did a Vo2 max test. Eventually I was denied weight loss surgery by him because he said my insurance won’t approve someone as healthy as me. I have no co-morbidities. I don’t have high cholesterol, I don’t have high blood pressure, I am not even pre-diabetic. I was very upset because I desperately want weight loss surgery still, even now, but I can’t afford it without insurance. So now I go to therapy every week and work on eating better. Since doing that I’ve lost 35 pounds. I’m 5’6” and as of today weigh 275 pounds. I am body positive but I also want to have a smaller body. I don’t celebrate being obese but I celebrate the fact that I look good no matter what size I am and according to my doctors I’m healthy and that is something to celebrate as well. I work at a plus size clothing store and we tell people to love themselves and don’t assume that your body is a problem. You can want to be healthier, but I don’t think people should be pointing at obese people saying “OMG you’re unhealthy” especially if their DOCTOR who knows their specific health information says they are healthy. People should be body positive enough to not take a random person on the internet’s opinion that all obesity cannot coexist with health and go to their doctors , who are experts on health, to find out if they are healthy or not. I personally disagree with the notion that you can’t be obese and healthy. Maybe I won’t always be healthy in the future, but in this present time, I am morbidly obese and HEALTHY”
By the way last night I ate so much candy that I made myself sick. It was those mini peppermint patties. Yea I can’t buy any food that is possible to eat all at once. So no chips, no crackers, no peanut butter, no candy, no box of cookies, no entire cake or pies. If I could moderate eating that stuff I would have no problem, but I can’t or won’t. I want it all in my belly right now.
Today I had lost a pound and a half since Sunday. Being on my period inflates my numbers anyway.
Today I went to Mad Taco with my mom. I had two blackened shrimp tacos and a frozen margarita. Yum! My mom paid for my tacos and I paid $5 for my margarita. Leaving me with $10 in my “eating out” budget this week.
I also went and got my pedicure, yay my feet look great. I am happy.
Now I need to buckle down tonight and study for this GRE. I hate studying for the GRE. I’d rather watch youtube.