I will spend Thanksgiving alone this year. I decided to plan a vegetarian meal for myself.
I will have tofurkey, cranberry sauce, macaroni and cheese and egg nog.
I went to Target yesterday and picked up all the prep.
I also decided I will get drunk on Thanksgiving. I have not drank alcohol since New Years Eve. I didn’t plan to have any alcohol till this New Years Eve, but I think I might be a little sad and depressed on Thanksgiving so I will allow myself to get drunk.
I picked up 5 mini bottles of liquor including rum to add to my Almond Nog.
It cost me about $30 for everything.
I put in all the calories for everything and I will be 1,125 calories OVER my max goal on Thanksgiving.
So since I already know how many calories I will be over by, I plan to get in a bunch of steps to save up calories.
I walked 10,000 steps yesterday, 11,000 steps today. Next Wednesday I will walk to my eyelash appointment which will be about 20,000 steps, then on Thanksgiving Day I will walk 10,000 steps. So that’s 40,000 steps, should be about 1200 calories with all that.
Planning is very important for something like that. I already input all my calories for Thanksgiving including breakfast, lunch and my last meal of that day. I will only eat 3 meals that day.
My housekeeper is Latin and she just came to clean my bathroom and she kept motioning to me and pointing at my face. I finally figured out that she was trying to ask me if I lost weight. She said “smaller, smaller”. LOL so then she was asking me how much I lost and how did I lose it. Maybe my face looks smaller now. I can’t tell. I think I have body dysmorphia cause people keep saying I am smaller, but I only see a small difference.
Oh yea also, my boyfriend called me skinny, which was weird cause I’m still in the obese category on the BMI charts.
I’m 5’6″ and weigh 197 pounds which puts my BMI at 31.8
BMI Categories: Underweight = <18.5 Normal weight = 18.5–24.9 Overweight = 25–29.9 Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
Last night I got really hungry. I’m really hoping my stomach shrinks eventually and I don’t get as hungry. There was a time when I did not allow myself to feel hunger , ever! but ‘ve realized that if I eat every time I am hungry, I will gain weight. I try not to get hungry during the day and I eat as soon as I wake up, so I’m not hungry in the morning either. But at night , my last meal is my lowest calorie meal and I get hungry about 1 hour after I’ve eaten it. If I don’t go to sleep right away I will eat some jello around that time. But after that I still get VERY hungry but I have generally reached my calorie maximum for the day. So I just lay there hungry trying to sleep.
Click on any of the following pictures to see what I’m eating zoomed in:
You will see that I drank a Soylent Stacked today. I still have some stock of that and a few of the Protein waters with energy (stimulants) as well. So I am going to have just 1 each day until I get rid of my stock. Hopefully I won’t get addicted to it again and have withdrawal symptoms like last time when I stop drinking it. I was taking way more stimulants before every day though. I don’t think 1 serving of them a day for a little while will cause any damage and it’s just until I deplete my stock. I don’t want to waste money.