I failed

I tried to have a perfect week but I failed

Last night, Dominos was having a 1/2 off online deal

I hate missing out on good deals

I literally contemplated for 2 hours about buying the pizza, I kept telling myself “but you want to lose weight by tomorrow” then I would say “but I’m hungry” then I would say “either way I’m going to eat something so what does it matter if it’s pizza”

I was arguing with myself

In the end I ordered the pizza and lava cakes

I ate half last night and the other half this morning

so I didn’t come close to my weight Goal on my Weight Chart

I wish I could have 1 perfect week

Just 1

this week I had so much cake and liquor and fries and pizza, and nachos and I called myself trying to have a perfect week, who does that?

Argh, why can’t I go 1 week without eating any junk food?

Got Damned this is annoying and frustrating and affecting my self esteem

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The Day After

I woke up after 3pm today. I wasn’t too hungover but I was dehydrated. I took a shower and went to work for 4 hours.

Before I went to work I stopped at Nothing Bundt Cake because I had a coupon for buy 1 get 1 free bundlet. I ate both bundlets at work with a bunch of water.

Ok so right now I have 153 calories left and I haven’t had dinner.

😦

 

Drunken Nights

So yesterday was my Ladies meetup dinner, we went to a sushi place that had really good happy hour menu. I got 3 drinks, a appetizer and sushi for $21 including tip.

After that, my friend from the other week wanted to go out, so we went to Carney’s where I proceeded to get as drunk as possible. I put everything I ate and drank into MyFitnessPal. I had a $20 gift certificate to Carney’s because I won at Bingo 2 weeks ago. So I ordered nachos and fried pickles and my friend ordered wings. I also had a peach martini, double shot of grapefruit tequila, Double shot of Fireball, and a shot of Avion coffee tequila which was surprisingly delicious.

After we left there we went to Yesterday’s for karaoke. I had an Old Fashioned and fries there. It was only $7 for both including tip.

I had a bit of extra money on my work debit card so I was ok with spending a bit.

My calories for the day was 3,702.

I think that is a record. I don’t think I’ve ever had so many calories in one day. My goal was 1660 and I went over that by 2,025

OK so the kicker for last night is that while I was at the karaoke bar Jonathan Knight from New Kids on The Block tweeted me and I proceeded to lose my shit. I started hyperventilating and I had to go home. I called my mom, my sisters and my boyfriend. I think I over reacted cause I was drunk. I was just so elated that he tweeted me. I fell asleep with a goofy smile on my face.

 

Lunch with mom

Today I went to lunch with my mom at Grub Burger and we both ordered The Beyond Meat Blue cheese burger. Holy smokes it was sooo good. It looks and taste just like beef. It even has a little “blood” in it. I’m not gonna lie I could have eaten a few more of them because I’m a greedy bitch and it didn’t fill me up. However it had like 950 calories in it. Maybe a little less but the menu said 950 calories for the burger with regular animal meat. They didn’t say how many calories the Beyond Meat substitute had so I just put the calories that they had on the menu for the regular burger. But it was DELICIOUS and I recommend everyone get the Beyond Meat Burger if it is an option.

For breakfast I had the Sweet Earth Big Sur Frozen Breakfast Burrito (290 cal)

I have 425 calories left available for dinner.

My caloric goal today is 1,660

1 Perfect Week

I’m going to try to eat perfectly this week. I want to lose 5 pounds this week. I am on my period so that makes me retain water and makes me bloated. I should be off my period by the time I weigh myself on Sunday. My goal is to be at 270 lbs. on Sunday. This week for my Ladies Dinner Meetup, we are going for sushi on Wednesday. I’ve already picked out what I want off the menu. Shouldn’t put me over my calories.

My goal is to not go over my caloric goal on MyFitnessPal

I’ll record what I eat, everyday this week.

Monday – July 15 I ate:

Breakfast: Protein oatmeal (290 cal)

Lunch: Aloha BBQ Quesadilla (vegetarian) (440 cal), I bought some key lime pie and I ate all of it. 2 servings of Key Lime Pie (640 cal), I had a shot of whiskey praline pecan (120 cal)

Dinner: So I had planned to just have some fruit cups for dinner since I ate so much at lunch. I tried it, 2 No Sugar Mixed Fruit (60 cal), but later I got super hungry as I was going to bed and I can’t sleep on a hungry growling stomach so I went to the freezer and found the thing with the least amount of calories which happened to be this Seafood Gumbo (210 cal)

I went over my caloric goal for the day by 73 calories. My goal was 1660 cal and I had 1,760 cal. I had a 27 calorie exercise leeway.

I’m not going to beat myself up over it, but I will not have dessert the rest of this week so that I don’t overeat

Coping with a Shopping Addiction

2 Week update on my No-Buy:

Today I went grocery shopping for the week. I spent $40 when my budget is $50. I wanted to make up for the drinks I had on Saturday. So I’m back on top of my food budget.

The only thing I bought that I maybe shouldn’t have was a bottle of nail polish last week. BUT, I bought that cause I decided to cut out pedicures for the rest of the year. The nail polish is for my toes and should last me the rest of the year. I’ll save $150 not getting pedicures for the rest of the year.

Today I bought some reusable straws for $5 off Amazon, those were legal on my No-Buy because they replaced the plastic straws I’ve been using. Plus reusable straws are better for the environment.

One of my coping mechanisms to aid me in my No-Buy is putting things on my Amazon Wishlist instead. So next year if I really still want some of that stuff I would have bought impulsively, I can get it next year off my Wishlist.

Check out my Wishlist:

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2120RUETYESS9/ref=nav_wishlist_lists_1?_encoding=UTF8&type=wishlist

2 steps back

Yesterday I woke up early and went to an event held by African American members of the school I want to go to. My mom came with me. I had waffles for breakfast. Then I had 5 mimosas and a margarita. It was really a fun time, I was talking and socializing so much. This put me over my weekly budget for food by $11.50

After that I went to work, I got hungry and ate a protein bar.

When I got home I ate indian food for dinner and I felt some moisture in the back of my panties. I was freaked out that my pilonidal cyst was not healed and I wiped the site where it was located and there was blood. I completely freaked out and went to the emergency room. Turns out my pilonidal cyst has completely healed, theres just a little raw skin tag left that may bleed or drain a little until its fully healed. The nurse took a picture for me to see and it’s literally the tiniest lil piece of flesh. I am so happy I went to the ER, I have been worried for months that I didn’t heal cause theres always a little drainage coming from that site. I feel better now. The nurse gave me some supplies to pack that area for the next week.

I gained weight. I have not lost any weight in a month. This week I didn’t eat well, I had banana foster french toast, pizza, cake, shrimp poboy, bread pudding, waffles. I didn’t do well at all. I have to do better this week.