Day 44: Diet Part 2

I’ve been eating junk for the past 7 days. I mean high calorie junk. I had pizza for 3 days. I ate an entire lemon cake yesterday. I don’t know why I’m eating like this, it’s awful. I feel like it’s never going to stop. I have to stop it. Today I had pancakes.

My grandma died on Sunday. I’m flying to Detroit for her funeral on Monday.

I need to get my hair done before I go, I don’t want to look terrible in family pictures. Did I mention I have no money and I have maxed out my credit card? I bought so many clothes and shoes this week.

I don’t know what my problem is this week, eating out of control and shopping like crazy. I think it has something to do with my bipolar disorder. It’s making me upset though, I feel out of control.

Also, I canceled my appointments with my therapist because noon is not a convenient time for me to go.

I have 21 days to lose 10 pounds before my concert, I need to get my head in the game.

I don’t even want to track my calories cause my eating has been so off plan.

Today I ate:

Breakfast & Lunch; Ihop Strawberry banana pancakes (650 cal)

Dinner: Subway 6″ tuna sub on italian herbs and cheese bread, veggie chopped salad, sprite (240 cal)

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Day 43: Diet Part 2

I woke up and was super happy with what I saw on the scale, yaaaay!!! I hope it holds till tomorrow, which it might not cause of what I ate today. Today I had to work and I was super hungry and I wanted ALL THE JUNK FOOD. I work in a mall and I went to the food court and ate all the crap I wanted, LOL. I felt super satisfied and satiated after I ate, so sorry I do not regret it. I’d been looking for that feeling for days and it never came, so to finally feel satisfied was a happy feeling for me. I know people say it’s unhealthy to tie your emotions to your food, but I don’t think that is realistic, for me at least. I actually walked to the Nestle store 3 times before I finally gave in and bought something.

What I ate today:

Breakfast: oatmeal (380 cal)

Lunch: stuffed spinach pizza (390 cal), iced turtle mocha (225 cal), Nestle 2 mini cookies with frosting in the middle (266 cal) (actually on the sign at Nestle it said the cookies were only 220 cal, but I couldn’t find that in MyFitnessPal)

Dinner: Veggie Chili & Cornbread (320 cal)

total calories so far: 1581

 

 

 

Day 42: Diet Part 2

Today I wanted the pizza at the mall, it’s this stuffed spinach pizza that I was craving. It’s huge, I ate half and threw the rest away.

What I ate today:

Breakfast: oatmeal (380 cal)

Lunch: stuffed spinach pizza (390 cal), peach/passion fruit/colada smoothie (348 cal)

Dinner; Amy’s chilli mac (420 cal)

Total calories: 1,538

Day 41: Diet Part 2

Wednesday is my cheat day, it is official now. It is the day I meet with my friends to go out for dinner. I always eat more and drink more at these dinners. So since I made this my cheat day, i decided to have cake for breakfast. i didn’t eat lunch. We ate dinner at a place that didn’t have many non-meat options so I just got appetizers

What I ate:

Breakfast: italian cream cake (590 cal), chocolate fudge cake (290 cal)

Dinner: guacamole (201 cal), queso (150 cal), tortilla chips (284 cal), frozen margarita (400 cal)

total calories (1,915)

Day 40: Diet Part 2

Today I ran errands all over town , I’m annoyed because UPS says they haven’t received the shipping label order yet from Amazon for me to return my camera, but the camera has to be shipped by the 25th or I don’t get a refund cause it’s USED. Argh!

I’ve been watching comedy specials on Netflix all day. Dave Chappelle is so funny. I don’t get Kevin Hart’s humor, though i did chuckle a couple times. Chris Rock is ok.

What I ate today:

Breakfast: oatmeal (310 cal)

Lunch: Chinese Noodles and veggies in a cashew cream sauce (480 cal)

Dinner: spaghetti and Meatless meatballs (240 cal), strawberry tart (317 cal)

Snack: 2 fruit cups (50 cal)

Total calories: 1,397

Birthday Shoes

I am investing a lil money into my social media. So far I bought a new camera (which I am returning cause it sucked and didn’t even shoot video), and clothes and shoes. The clothes and shoes are for me to have content to shoot for fashion hauls on YouTube and Instagram.  I can’t afford to buy new stuff all the time, but I needed some stuff to start me off. I ordered a bunch of clothes from this online store called Shein and I need shoes to go with the items I bought. I am out of money for now.

My birthday is coming up on May 5, so if any of you want to help contribute to my progress on Social Media, please visit my Amazon Wishlist and get me a pair of shoes. There’s plenty on there that are under $20
You don’t need my address to order off Amazon Wishlist, Amazon makes it really easy for you to send me stuff off my Wishlist. They already have my address.

Here is the link and thank you soooo much if you help me out with this:

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2120RUETYESS9

Day 39: Diet Part 2

Lost another pound, but today I came on my period. Hopefully I won’t gain weight because of that. I ate well today.

Breakfast: oatmeal (310 cal)

Lunch: veggie chill with cornbread (320 cal)

Dinner: meatless pepperoni and mac n cheese (490 cal)

Snack: cashew milk caramel non dairy ice cream bar (180 cal), 2 fruit cups (50 cal)

Total calories today: 1350